Wow It’s been awhile hasn’t it?
Funny how you wish you had all the time in the world when you were busy, when caught up in something. How you wished you actually had the time to just slack off and do something you like once in awhile. To just take a break from your fast paced, stressful life and appreciate what’s around you. To just not have ANYTHING on your mind, no homework, no projects, assignments. for just a day.
But when you finally do feel like you have all the time in the world, however, (a full 3 months), you start to think. – What the fuck am i going to do now?
That was what was on my mind after my last paper last week. Of course there’s the initial excitement about ‘graduating’ from secondary school. Having parties lined up, BBQs, chalets. You name it. But there’s only so much partying and BBQs you’re gonna attend and have. There’s only so much movie and theatre outings you’re gonna have with your friends for 3 months. But it isn’t as simple as that. There is something else I’m thinking about.
On Friday as i was walking out of my school’s gate for the last time as a student there, it suddenly struck me. Now that secondary school is over, what the hell am i going to do with my life? This is the moment where i figure out what i really want to do, and it’s absolutely going to affect my future. IT IS my future we’re talking about here.
At least i have a full 3 months to think about that.
Wow.
Maybe I’m already starting to miss secondary school life, and i think i know why. It’s where i met my awesome friends,where we did the most crazy random shit in school because of 1 simple reason, a group of guys and boredom just doesn’t mix. It’s where i met idiots, people who backstab, suck up, you learn how to deal with them and sometimes, the results aren’t pretty. It’s where i studied and mugged and stared at books almost everyday, It’s when i studied for 2 months just for a week worth of papers. It’s when i had my first relationship and… let’s not talk about that.
As corny as this is going to sound, i truly believe that my close group of friends are gonna be friends forever. You just can’t take the ‘bro-ness’ out of us.
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I guess i need some time alone with myself and think of what i really want to do.
That makes it a lot better.
Gosh, I so know what you mean about getting bored and not knowing what to do but after all those years of school – it’s a great break.
May we all keep in touch with our friends because it’s just so easy to let it all go.
AND it’s good to know you finally update!